well, i guess this is my usual "Check In" LOL. betcha can't guess what i'm doin! standin @ the C.C. in the C.S.C in view of the doors for the S.A. meeting, LOL. or, i should say S.G.A. now. the V.P. just walked by and let me know i have 4 mins. till start. so i'll keep it on the D.L. LOL ok no not really ... enough alphabet soup ...
it's been BEAUTIFUL out yesterday and today! like 70s and 80s ... and it MIGHT thunderstorm tonight, so cross your fingers!
God has given me a LOT of peace and contenment today, and i think i've done a bit maybe better with my diabetes and not bein so lazy, hehe, so praise Him for that! haven't talked to Jeffrey since yesterday, which is a HUGE bummer ... wish i knew where he was, what he was doin but most of all HOW he was, ya know?? i know God's got him ... just gotta trust. FROG, right Jeffrey? ;)
"God, whose giving knows no ending, all our life is from your store: Nature's wonder, Jesus' wisdom, costly cross, grave's shattered door. Gifted by you, turn we to you, off'ring up ourselves in praise; Thankful songs shall rise forever, gracious donor of our days."
Twenty years ago today, a beautiful little baby boy named Jeffrey Bapst Jr. was born. Never before in my life has someone's birthday excited me so much, lol!!! My sunshine turns 20 today and I'm hoping and praying and crossing my fingers that, despite the circumstances he's in, he has a WONDERFUL birthday! I miss him so much and am so grateful that God made him and put him on this earth, at this time! Jeffrey has made such a difference in my life, through God's grace, and I can't imagine life without him! Today is such a happy day!!!
Jeffrey Bapst I'm so glad you are here "for such a time as this"! YOU ARE WONDERFUL. I love you - always will!!
"I can see the fingerprints of god When I look at you I can see the fingerprints of god And I know it’s true You’re a masterpiece That all creation quietly applauds And you’re covered with the fingerprints of god
Never has there been and never again Will there be another you Fashioned by god’s hand And perfectly planned To be just who you are And what he’s been creating Since the first beat of your heart Is a living breathing priceless work of art and
Just look at you You’re a wonder in the making Oh and god’s not through no In fact he’s just getting started ..."
~Fingerprints of God, Steven Curtis Chapman
your golden waves are walking down upon this face ...
"Oh chariot Your golden waves Are walking down Upon this face Oh chariot I'm singing out loud To guide me Give me your strength ..."
~ Chariot, Gavin DeGraw
i realize this song makes no sense (and it's not country lol!) but it still rocks. it's like a comfort food song, LOL. and it's stuck in my head. what's new? i don't mind though. :)
just standin here @ the "coyote cyberbar" (weird name) waitin for the SA meeting to start. the finance committee is still meeting in the rushmore rooms right now, so the doors are closed but ppl are congregating outside. tonight is the last night for the current officers, unless they were re-elected. should be moving. or not. haha!
heard from Jeffrey earlier today, and actually earlier than expected, so that was awesome. hopefully i'll get to talk to him again before he goes out on this next mission ... and hopefully this one won't be too too long either. i miss him and long for him so much when he's gone! can't wait to talk to him again. jeffrey's my sunshine. :)
God has been teachin me so much lately. i've had some really hard times, but yeah, namely He's been teachin me about freedom in Him. i can be SUCH a legalist, such a worrier, so hard on myself and so often i fail to see His mercy, His grace, His forgiveness ... i don't cast my cares upon Him ... i'm too judgemental ... etc. terrible stuff, stuff that cages me in. but God has been teaching me a lot, like i said. freedom is a wonderful feeling, and it IS only found in surrendering to Christ. He's taught me a TON through Jeffrey ... and His Word, and some divinely timed songs and Christian programs and such ... but He's using Jeffrey and His Word SO MUCH ... i rejoice in that!
Well, Jeffrey got offline a few minutes ago. He should be gone for a couple of days. That will be tough, as always, because it's hard missing the one you love, and not knowing if he is OK or hurting or sick or tired ... and on top of that, not being able to do anything about it. It's a two-way street too ... while he's gone he doesn't know what's up with me. But I learned a lot from the 5 days I didn't hear from him last week ... God taught me a lot and it was really a reassurance that He would sustain me ... and give me peace and joy if I just let Him. Jeffrey's name means "Heavenly Peace." I LOVE THAT. I pray for that peace for both of us ... and I pray too, while he's gone and even when he's not that God would just remind Jeffrey that I love him, and that it will never change ... as sad as it is when I don't hear from him ... at least this time I know in advance ... and I feel like God has made me stronger. I'll be longing for him, but God will hold me up, because He is, after all, my everything. And I know it will make the next time we talk even sweeter, if that is possible, lol! Jeffrey and I pray God would lead us through the good times and bad, whatever will glorify Him ... and the one thing i've come to see lately is that the storms are worth it because there is always a rainbow afterwards ... you just have to keep your eyes on God, and the rainbow ...
I went to bed at 9 pm last night, got up around 3:30 am cuz I couldn't sleep and Jeffrey was on - yay! Then he called, then I got about 2 more hours of sleep and then Jeffrey got online again ... which was awesome! So as weird as it sounds I actually more refreshed than usual LOL cuz I actually got like 8.5 hrs of sleep - that's more than usual!
Two classes today ... newspaper meeting tonight (oh joy) ... gotta mail Jeffrey's boxes FINALLY lol ... i got him a couple post cards from Minn. and a couple from Omaha and I'm going to send one a day this week so hopefully he won't get them all on the same day and that will be fun.
Well, God bless everyone. Let me know how yall are doin. Dan it was good chattin' with ya last night ...
Erin
PS - VDay was exactly ONE MONTH ago today! Crazy how time flies! What a perfect day that was! :) But every day is wonderful just to be alive, and secondly to be with Jeffrey ...
Hey all. If everyone could pray for all the troops right now, especially Jeffrey, that would be wonderful. They just all need it, so much. Just pray that God keeps them safe, and in good spirits, and gives them strength, and that He would bring many civilians AND soldiers to saving knowledge of Him through this. Please pray. If you leave a comment and let me know you're praying, that would be really encouraging, but if you'd don't, that's OK, as long as you take the time to pray.
I haven't heard from Jeffrey since Saturday, and I have a feeling I won't for awhile yet either. Who knows. I'm taking comfort in the fact, though, that I know the One who knows when I'll be able to talk to Him next, and I know Jeffrey is in His most-capable hands. It's just hard not knowing what Jeffrey is going through, and not being able to talk to him and laugh with him and pray with him. It's hard not knowing if he is hurting or tired or what. It's even harder not being able to fix anything. But God has him ... I know that ... and it will all be OK. I love Jeffrey so much more than I could ever say. He is so many things to me, including my best friend (next to God, of course).
So, yes, everyone please, please pray for all the troops, especially Jeffrey. If you know someone/something I can pray for, please leave a comment and I would be more than happy to!
